Our one year anniversary is approaching and I would like to take a moment to reflect on all the major changes that have happened in my life this year; not only with The Rabbit Hole but in my personal life as well. Opening a business is by far one of the most challenging things I have ever done. And, what I find to be the most challenging is getting out of my own way. I tend to want to control the outcome of everything. I’ll be standing in the middle of this GIANT TO-DO list, that, for the most part seems to be made up of unachievable goals and it takes everything inside me to not give up.
This past year, I have had to spend time looking deep within myself to create a set of tools that allow me to believe that I am strong enough for this. Here is what I have come to realize: I am most successful when I approach creating a business in the same manner I approach my art. When I try and force innovation and creativity to come, I am left with nothing but this angry voice inside my head beating myself up. It reminds me of the moment right before I have gone on stage to perform and think to myself, “What if I’m not good enough?” But, then I have to remember to stay true to my ART and let go of the outcome. When I choose to step out of my comfort zone and walk through the unknown, Rabbit Hole really blossoms. Even if it wasn’t my best performance or workshop, I have learned that putting myself out there leads to personal and professional growth. And, I think in the end I learn more from my failures then I do from my wins.
Also, I have learned to know when to ask for help. Sometimes, I find that I will shame myself for not having all the answers. Today I realize that when I push myself to connect with others and pick their brains, I usually find that spark I was searching for all along.
It is walking through my vulnerability that leads to my strength. This isn’t something that is easy for me and I have to work on it every single day, in every aspect of my life. It feels very vulnerable to have your heart out there but I know I must show up and let myself be deeply seen in order to have the company and life I deserve. And, I’m learning that every time I choose to step out of my comfort zone and travel down the unpaved road, I end up finding all the the innovation and creativity I need.
So, cheers to another meaningful year traveling down The Rabbit Hole! I’m excited for this next chapter!
Peace and Love, Brooke!
Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.
Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection